(My way of telling my students/“kids” I love them, but I had to follow my heart) It wasn’t easy to make the choice to step away from teaching - a profession I’ve been in for 6 years. My love of the sciences, teaching a younger generation and attempting to make an impact on their lives in a way that led them to be better people was a calling I had in college, and probably even before that. It was really tough to leave. I definitely cried over it, for weeks. Thinking about leaving those kids was on my mind constantly. You never really know how much you love your students until you don’t see them every day. But, I knew something was missing in my life, something was wearing on me. My mental health was struggling and the stress I was experiencing was not what I wanted every day. I had lots of support while teaching, from my administrators, my colleagues, even from my students. But sometimes, you have to follow what your heart is telling you.
I’ve always been a person who falls in love with a lot of different things. I love Shark Week, I love planning lessons, I love decorating my home, I love dogs, I love details in things that some people might not notice, but make a huge difference. One of the things I’ve noticed since I got married to my incredible, compassionate, hilarious, goofy husband was how much I love love. If that makes sense? He’s made me a sap.
I love seeing other people follow their dreams, follow their hearts. I love seeing people who have found their person and get lost in how much they love each other. I love seeing it expressed during their engagement sessions and even more on their wedding day. That’s something I’m able to see each and every day with my new job. I’ve only been with Bailey Keller Photo and Design for a few months now, but I can feel that I’m truly excited for the future and whats to come.
I’m never good at posting too much about what’s going on in my life but this career change was pretty big. I felt like I owed those kids, my kids, a little explanation. (My kids refers to all those I’ve taught, you’ll always be “my kids” ) This was a big, terrifying, exciting step in a direction that was completely unknown. However, one that I think has made me happier. And by golly I love getting to know couples and watching their love unfold at every event. Teaching will always have a special place in my heart, and those kiddos will always be “my kids.” They won’t get rid of me that easily as I plan to sub throughout the school year when I have time. I hope that I was teaching my kids something when I told them I was leaving: the lesson that you need to make sure that you are doing something that scares you, challenges you, but ultimately makes you happy.
I guess here’s my point: do something that scares you. Not everything is going to be easy, especially when you’ve been in something secure for so long. Your fear should never hold you back from doing something you love. This doesn’t mean you get rid of your fear, it just means that you meet it and tell it that you can do new things, even with it alongside you.